PLEASE DON'T T_____________T

        such a sad day..gloomy day

i'm trying my best to not thinking about this

but someone has brought that issue back

my heart just can't be help, it just feel sadder than it was

i wish i could stay strong, but i can't do it anymore

i may look strong outside, but i'm so sensitive inside

maybe people don't really know this fact despite of my playful character, cheerful character and also since i love to joke a lot

now, i'm just too afraid...and so tired of getting hurt again

too many things happened..it's just me who knows it

all people that i love always leave me

even since before

one of the reasons why i don't really want to be close with anyone

because it hurts me too much when they leave me 

and it's hurting me more when i know that they will leave me soon

time has passed quickly..just left 1 year already before they will leave me for real

i always hope that thing will always stay this way

but i know, it will just happen in my dream

i thought i have found my true happiness, but sadly it just for a while

only in this short time

i wish it can be longer that it was...i really really wish it

i dont know what to think anymore

my heart was totally broken into pieces 

it drives me nuts whenever i think about it

i also hate when i know that i can't do what people too

i couldn't bear to wait for that day to come

seriously, i don't even want it to happen anyways

this one is too much for me to handle

this sorrow heart of mine..please be okay T___T